Perrie Edwards Candidly Details Her ‘Very Traumatic’ Pregnancy Loss

Perrie Edwards is candidly opening up about her pregnancy losses.

In a new interview with Glamour, the Little Mix star, 32, detailed her experience losing her baby at 22 weeks, not too long after welcoming her son Axel, 4. Edwards, who shares her son with fiancé Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain, told the outlet that she knew something was wrong when their doctor, who’s usually “bubbly and upbeat,” was “very serious, very stern, and wasn’t really saying much.”

“Then the doctor came out with all this information, and I just remember going deaf, completely. I couldn’t hear a thing. I was just spacing out; I had an out-of-body-experience,” she said. “Then I just broke down and started crying. Alex had to drive home somehow, even though he was injured. I was like, ‘I can’t drive, I can’t see.’ Then we got home, and then that’s when it all started to unravel.”

The Perrie artist went on to say that the pregnancy loss “felt like it came out of nowhere” because every scan that the couple went to was fine.

“Because that was the thing, it felt like it came out of nowhere. Every scan before had been fine, we just weren’t expecting to go into the 22-week scan, and for our world to just crumble,” she said. “And then the whole experience was very traumatic.”

The singer also shared an experience that happened a few days after her miscarriage.

“A few days later, I remember being in the shower and my milk came in. I remember just going out the room like, ‘Mam!’, and she was like, ‘What, what, what?’, and I was like, ‘I’ve got milk!,’ ” she said. “She was like, ‘Oh, darling, they said this would happen.’ But I just wasn’t expecting it.”

“I was devastated. That was the worst bit. My body was prepared for the baby, but the baby was gone,” she said. “So that just sent me over the edge.” 

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Edwards shared with the outlet that she and her fiancé were “very lucky to have each other,” as they navigated the miscarriages.

“We are very lucky to have each other. We love each other so much. He was just so worried about me, and I think he felt the lack of control, like there was nothing he could really do,” she said. “But him just being there, and being by my side through the whole thing, just made it so much better.”

“I kept asking him, ‘Are you okay?’, and he’s like, ‘It’s not about me,’ and I’m like, ‘Yes, it is though.’ We both lost a baby. We both went through it,” she said. “He’s very like that with emotions. He tries to just suck it up and move on. But I could see that he was traumatized about it. I think he just wanted to try and be strong for me.”